I am just having one of those days today.
It is super overcast and just gloomy today. I am not feeling my best and I am super sensitive to everything today. Iʻm just ready to go home.
I think the closer it gets to May and the worst things are getting… Iʻm just becoming more and more sad.
Ah…. at 9:40am this morning… I finally got confirmation about my convocation for next month. It is cancelled. Yes, I think it is the right call, but hearing that it is cancelled just makes me sad. I’ve had May 2020 in my head for the past 2 years. I was striving for May because I knew that is when I was going to graduate. I really wanted to go and celebrate my accomplishment because I am the first in my family to be graduating with my BA.
I’m allowing myself to “mourn” my graduation today, and then be happy because I will still receive my degree! I will still be graduating with my BA in Education. I am still accomplishing something huge. Once this is over (hopefully) I will have a party that will celebrate me and my successes.
On the bright side, tonight I have my first ‘ōlelo Hawaiʻi online class and I am super excited! I really have been putting a lot of time and effort into learning and practicing. Learning a language isnʻt something you do a couple of times and it sticks forever, but it is a lifelong practice and a journey.
My goal is to speak ʻōlelo Hawaiʻi as my first language and English my second. At the rate this pandemic is going I could start having real and full conversations by the end of this month.
Thatʻs the goal anyways.
Tomorrow will be a better day, and April will be a better month.
Thank you all for reading!